Just ultra-low on energy and motivation. Hardly able to eat. Kids are doing all right, despite being cooped-up indoors since Christmas due to the stormy and icy weather. It's times like these that I don't know where I'm going to get the strength to go on. I've prayed and we've been prayed for non-stop, but I'm so tired. Just so damn down and tired.
Got dressed nicely, put on make-up and did my hair, but I still feel like a zombie. Maybe I've been reading too much depressing stuff lately...LOL...but I actually don't need to read anything to make me feel less secure about how we're going to get by from one day to the next. Reality is enough.
Anyway, that's all I've got the energy to blurt out today. Sorry it's a downer.
Signing off...
--Cindy
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
Saturday, December 26, 2015
An Early Appeal...
I'm not very good at asking for help. It's something I've learned to swallow my pride and do, though. I'm taking a deep breath and trying--here goes:
This blog is only a couple days old, but I'd like to make an early appeal for support. At the top of the blog page, there is a "Donate" button and, if you feel -- at some point, now or in the future -- this blog is worth it...I would be grateful for any assistance. In the meantime, thank you for viewing this blog and considering this request.
You have no idea how much it would mean to my family, your help!
With Deepest Gratitude,
--Cindy
Ho Ho...Oh, No...
Now the anxiety and dread sets in. We made it through Christmas, but the guilt grinding at me for not making all the "Merry Christmas" phone calls I should have just adds to the overwhelming sting of everything.
The three little ones seem satisfied with their Christmas haul, although there were one or two complaints that Santa forgot a couple "essentials," (i.e., Lego Dimensions for the WiiU, etc.) I don't even know what that game is, nor did we have the money for it, that's for sure...
And now the bills will be coming due. Oh, not the bills for Christmas gifts and festivities. (We carefully managed getting those somehow with cash.) We're talking the basics: The rent, the electric bill, the phone/internet bill, etc. are coming up, and we haven't got a clue where we're going to get the clams to cover them. Talk about the art of fingernail-clinging.
I have one weeks' worth of unemployment left...about $272 coming next week, and then...that's it. We're hosed. No car, no job, no money. Thank God for food stamps. That's about all we've got. And kind friends and family...and, of course, my never-ending hustling for some kind of work. Counting the minutes until tax time, when there's the possibility we may see a return. But even that's no guarantee. We've learned not to count on anything being "guaranteed." I guess that's kind of a good thing.
When I lived in Europe, parents received a monthly stipend for taking care of their children, whether or not they worked. I wish we had something similar here in the States. Some might argue that the combined Earned Income Tax Credit and Child Tax Credits could be considered the same thing. But here it only comes once a year, and--again--there's no guarantee.
If a return does come in, we wind up getting caught up on utilities and buying all the desperately-needed things the kids need: shoes, clothes, haircuts, etc. And then there are the car repairs...that is, when we have a car. I guess, right now, car expenses are something that aren't weighing on us--but I have to tell you--living in Texas without a car is torturous...especially during the relentlessly hot summer. Have you ever balanced a cart-load of groceries, Third World-style, on your back, on a bike? Yeah, humiliating and excruciatingly painful doesn't begin to describe it.
Anyway, there's a lot more for me to uselessly complain about, so stay tuned, folks! If nothing else, I'm enjoying--so far--my online pity/complaint/anger-blowing-off. Maybe I'll bore myself with some politically-related bloviating in my next post. Feel free to comment, judge, counter-complain, tell me to count my blessings, etc.
Thank you for checking in... Happy (almost) New Year!
The three little ones seem satisfied with their Christmas haul, although there were one or two complaints that Santa forgot a couple "essentials," (i.e., Lego Dimensions for the WiiU, etc.) I don't even know what that game is, nor did we have the money for it, that's for sure...
And now the bills will be coming due. Oh, not the bills for Christmas gifts and festivities. (We carefully managed getting those somehow with cash.) We're talking the basics: The rent, the electric bill, the phone/internet bill, etc. are coming up, and we haven't got a clue where we're going to get the clams to cover them. Talk about the art of fingernail-clinging.
I have one weeks' worth of unemployment left...about $272 coming next week, and then...that's it. We're hosed. No car, no job, no money. Thank God for food stamps. That's about all we've got. And kind friends and family...and, of course, my never-ending hustling for some kind of work. Counting the minutes until tax time, when there's the possibility we may see a return. But even that's no guarantee. We've learned not to count on anything being "guaranteed." I guess that's kind of a good thing.
When I lived in Europe, parents received a monthly stipend for taking care of their children, whether or not they worked. I wish we had something similar here in the States. Some might argue that the combined Earned Income Tax Credit and Child Tax Credits could be considered the same thing. But here it only comes once a year, and--again--there's no guarantee.
If a return does come in, we wind up getting caught up on utilities and buying all the desperately-needed things the kids need: shoes, clothes, haircuts, etc. And then there are the car repairs...that is, when we have a car. I guess, right now, car expenses are something that aren't weighing on us--but I have to tell you--living in Texas without a car is torturous...especially during the relentlessly hot summer. Have you ever balanced a cart-load of groceries, Third World-style, on your back, on a bike? Yeah, humiliating and excruciatingly painful doesn't begin to describe it.
Anyway, there's a lot more for me to uselessly complain about, so stay tuned, folks! If nothing else, I'm enjoying--so far--my online pity/complaint/anger-blowing-off. Maybe I'll bore myself with some politically-related bloviating in my next post. Feel free to comment, judge, counter-complain, tell me to count my blessings, etc.
Thank you for checking in... Happy (almost) New Year!
Thursday, December 24, 2015
Well, Here We Go!
Starting my first blog today...
For the most part, I'll be sharing observations and experiences that relate to humanity's utter insanity. Pretty broad subject. None of us will get bored, I hope. Oh, and as a member of "humanity," you can expect bursts of insanity coming from my direction, too...having been driven there on a quite-frequent basis.
Trying to eke out and maintain a survivable existence for myself and my growing family in the late, and declining, "Empire of Chaos," i.e., the United States, has proven a daunting exercise in utter lunacy, chaos, unpredictability and--yes--horror/terror.
Welcome aboard!
Please feel free to ask questions, or suggest blog topics for me to comment on. Will be thinking of what topic my first blog post topic(s) might be over the next couple days. No promises, but I would like to post something at least once a week, or more, if possible.
Oh, I will also post a list of links I visit on a regular basis, which might give you an idea where I'm coming from, and how I became the warped freak that I am!
My e-mail address is keltcindy@yahoo.com.
Thank you for visiting.
Merry Christmas...Happy Holidays...etc.
--Cindy
For the most part, I'll be sharing observations and experiences that relate to humanity's utter insanity. Pretty broad subject. None of us will get bored, I hope. Oh, and as a member of "humanity," you can expect bursts of insanity coming from my direction, too...having been driven there on a quite-frequent basis.
Trying to eke out and maintain a survivable existence for myself and my growing family in the late, and declining, "Empire of Chaos," i.e., the United States, has proven a daunting exercise in utter lunacy, chaos, unpredictability and--yes--horror/terror.
Welcome aboard!
Please feel free to ask questions, or suggest blog topics for me to comment on. Will be thinking of what topic my first blog post topic(s) might be over the next couple days. No promises, but I would like to post something at least once a week, or more, if possible.
Oh, I will also post a list of links I visit on a regular basis, which might give you an idea where I'm coming from, and how I became the warped freak that I am!
My e-mail address is keltcindy@yahoo.com.
Thank you for visiting.
Merry Christmas...Happy Holidays...etc.
--Cindy
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